Thursday, January 29, 2009

Change Direction

I often wonder if Napoleon knew if the battle of Waterloo was going to be his final battle forever immortalized as his WATERLOO? I wonder if he might have passed million signposts leading to the destination that said: TURN AROUND!! STOP!! YIELD!! DO NOT ENTER WRONG WAY!!! The modern day street signs that we take for granted are so explanatory: ONE WAY, NO TURN ON RED, and my personal favorite, PED XING. They are all designed to give us a gentle nudge in the right direction. Should we desire a change of direction at the wrong place and time, there are other signs: NO U TURN.
In life, when we are seeking a change of direction, the signs are not always posted so clearly, but our intuition provides the direction. When all else fails, the outcome is the best indicator. I wanted to switch jobs, when I didn't get the one I wanted, I pouted. The outcome was telling me YIELD. I did so unwillingly, but it turned out fine. These past few years of dating the signs have all read: PROCEED WITH CAUTION! SLOW DOWN! CURVES AHEAD. I have just been flying by the seat of my pants in the name of adventure and dating is turning into my Waterloo. Most of my attempts, though fun, have not been productive. They have taught me a lot about myself and the opposite sex, but this was not supposed to be a learning experience. That's what school is for!!! I am guessing that as Napoleon headed to his destination, he thought he would emerge victorious. He expected to conquer Waterloo. As history (and fate) would have it, he was the one to be conquered. Perhaps dating is my Waterloo. It is the one thing I really thought I could attack and win, but I am still in it. I think I may have lost, but denial won't let me look at it that way. I guess instead of Waterloo, I am more like W (as in George W) when he declared victory in the Iraqui-offensive when it continues as I type. In short, no pun intended, I will continue with this offensive in the same manner. I will request more troops for a losing battle and the war will wage on until there is a CHANGE in my administration. This CHANGE will have to be as historic as the recent CHANGE in our country, because like our country, it takes CHANGE on a high magnitude for me to GET IT! I'm not slow, I'm not hardheaded, I just don't read the signs even the one I see everyday that reads: OBJECTS IS MIRROR ARE CLOSER THAN THEY APPEAR!

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