Nothin But a Number

Age ain't nothin but a number
Goin down ain't nothin but a thang
The Love that I have for you
It'll never change

~Aaliyah

Is it better to be with someone who makes you giddy as a sixteen year old or to be with someone who makes you feel all grown up? There is a certain enjoyment in the "butterfly effect." It's that newness when you meet someone and they make you feel all mushy inside. HOWEVER, at this point in my life, there is a certain security in meeting someone who makes you feel all grown up. Given the choice, which is the better feeling. Security has a long term promise to it. Butterflies, well, they're only for a season. I guess I have answered my own question.

But what about the person who remembers you from back when?? You know, that good old relationship that fits like your favorite jeans. They feel good, you still look good in them, BUT they are OUT OF STYLE!!! A recent visit with a friend from a past life was very gratifying, but disturbing. He still looks at me through the glasses of our youth. He sees the 22 year old me and as skinny, perky and cute as she WAS, I haven't been that girl in a long time. I don't even think I know her. She probably wouldn't like me. Unlike the song, we do change and our love changes. Actually, it evolves and morphs into something unrecognizable, but equally as good as before. SADE said it's NEVER AS GOOD AS THE FIRST TIME, but I think [and by think, I mean HOPE] it JUST GETS BETTER WITH TIME!